Ever since I have started making music, I’ve been on a rollercoaster.

There are highs and lows, it starts off slow, then you might have a drop, then go slow again…

It’s not easy sometimes because people seem to put pressure on you without even realising it.

I’ll have people asking me, so, are you a star yet?

So what has happened to the songs you published? Any news?

Are you going on tour?

And I’m just like, as famous youtuber swoozie would say,

« HOLLAHOLLAHOLLA HOLD UP »🤣

Like, people don’t seem to understand that, you don’t just become a famous singer overnight.

And -hello- what do you expect is gonna happen with my songs? Blow up overnight and have them playing on every radio without me lifting a finger?

People won’t just « find out » about you. 

The people who blew up actually had a managing team behind them.

Just like Gayle with her song “abcdefu”.

So, no, nothing has happened, sorry.

And that’s fine.

Because, am I really in a hurry for my songs to be famous?

No.

Does being famous=success to me?

Not at all.

In fact, I think there is a certain joy and peace in knowing you’re just a small town musician having fun.

In fact, everything we do is vain.

No one goes to rest in peace saying, « I wish I had made more music » or « I wish I was famous »🤣

No, I think what I would think about, is the loved ones I am leaving behind.

And that is what is most important to me.

To provide a good life for my loved ones, but also to BE THERE for them.

And can you really do that when being on tour? Barely seeing your family?

I don’t know.

It might be do-able.

But I also know that, I want to be an example.

I want my kids to look at me one day and be proud of their mom.

For them to think, hey look at that, she followed her dreams, she’s living her life and she has no regrets.

She may not be super famous or anything like that but, she’s found success in its purest form.

To love herself and her life wholeheartedly and to love others the same way.

And that, to me, is the most inspiring thing.

So yes, I am still making music.

Yes, I’m still on the grind to make things happen in my music carreer.

Slowly, but surely 😊

And that’s all I need 😊